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Pregnancy #4: 5w3d

 Well, today started with getting the results of my HCG blood draw from last night. The numbers were not even close to doubling over the last 72+ hours. My doctor's office reached out a few hours later, and told me they wanted me to get in for an ultrasound ASAP because she was concerned about an ectopic. I explained that the scheduler had told me there was no availability, and she said it was marked as a "stat" order so they would fit me in. Yet another mistake by that scheduler that made me so frustrated.

Thankfully my husband was off work early today so I went after he got home. I had to wait over an hour. I ended up calling the OB's office, where the same nurse said she was waiting to see my results, and would call down to see if she could get me in faster. I was admitted back right after that. The ultrasound was sort of painful and took like 20 minutes. It is uncomfortable and sad. She told me I would get the results that day.

I also got the results of my genetic carrier screening, and tested negative for all 274 diseases. So I guess that's good news. I believe my pregnancy is not ectopic, but there was no fetal pole or heartbeat yet. I just hope this can all be resolved faster than it was last time. 

I have been feeling a little bit of weird feeling in my pelvic area but not sure if it's just the nerves from knowing something is wrong. 

I feel like: I am being punished. I was stupid to try again without getting more of the testing done. And my husband is frustrated too - he doesn't want to try again without answers. Hoping I can follow up with my OB and the RE tomorrow. 

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